During my recovery, I’ve periodically lapsed into sponsoring myself. If I were the only addict who had ever done this, it would be humiliating, but not worthy of writing an article for The NA Way. However, it seems this resistance to allowing others to help us is common among addicts. So, if you answer “yes” to any of the following questions, then maybe you, too, have some experience with self-sponsorship:
1. When you were new, did you resist getting a sponsor, because you didn’t want anyone telling you what to do?
2. Was your first sponsor a “temporary” sponsor, because you feared making long-term commitments?
3. Have you asked someone to sponsor you, and then not called for days, weeks, or months because you didn’t know what to say?
4. Do you not call your sponsor because he or she appears to be busy or tired?
5. Have you changed sponsors three or more times because you didn’t like their feedback?
6. Do you avoid calling because you don’t want to hear what your sponsor will say?
7. Do you ever feel grateful that you got your sponsor’s answering machine?
8. Have you lied to your sponsor?
9. Have you taken service positions without talking to your sponsor first, and then felt overwhelmed by the demands of the positions? Did you ever quit a service position without talking to your sponsor first?
10. Have you ever really needed to talk to your sponsor, but when you called,
July 31, 2014
Freedom from active addiction
|"Narcotics Anonymous offers only one promise and that is freedom from active addiction, the solution that eluded us for so long."
|Basic Text, p. 106
|NA offers no promises other than freedom from active addiction. It is true that some of our members meet with financial success in recovery. They buy nice houses, drive new cars, wear fine clothes, and form beautiful families. These outward signs of prosperity are not the lot of all of our members, however. A great many of us never achieve financial success. This does not necessarily reflect on the quality of our recovery.
When we are tempted to compare ourselves to these other, seemingly more affluent members, it is good to remember why we came to the rooms of Narcotics Anonymous. We came because our lives had fallen down around us. We were emotionally, physically, and spiritually defeated. Our Basic Text reminds us that "in desperation we sought help from each other in Narcotics Anonymous." We came because we were beaten.
For addicts, even one day clean is a miracle. When we remember why we came to Narcotics Anonymous and in what condition we arrived, we realize that material wealth pales in comparison to the spiritual riches we have gained in recovery.
|Just for Today: I have been given a spiritual gift greater than material wealth: my recovery. I will thank the God of my understanding for my freedom from active addiction.
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